I was inspired, by someone who in my eyes could never inspire me.

This one is for you, this one is for the girl who dissapeared from my world, this one is for the girl that looks in the mirror and cries.

You never good enough for anyone, you were never pretty enough, funny enough, smart enough.

But for who? For some guys who barely know your name.

You should have listened, look at me in the eyes, look at the people who love you.

We bump heads, because we are both head-strong, you push me away, you cry, you hit me.

All i want to do is make you understand, you are perfect; to me.

You don’t need to change. You don’t need to try to be perfect, because to me you are.

Your reckless ways, they are not you honey.

I know you, that’s why you hate me so much, i know you better than your own mother.

You will never smile, because you are happy.

You never did.

But you should try, try to lose your composure, try to laugh, try to smile.

LIVE.

That’s what you always loved about me, I lived.

And when we are together, you live to.

I would have spent my entire life with you, to make you live; if you only asked.

Now i can’t reach out to you, ths is my last chance.

Look at me, you are beautiful,

How can you have no feeling and still be alive?

How can you smile and still not be happy?

How can you cry for someone who never really wanted you?

So what’s going on? What’s going on inside your head?

What’s going on inside your heart?

Let’s stop for a second, stop the maddness of this busy days, stop thinking about other people and their expectations, and focus on ourselfs.

This is what i learned, this is a sick world, with sick people.

They will sugar-code everything, so that you believe the lies they tell you.

They will never care about you, all they want to do is use you.

You will get your heart broken because an ass will make you fall in love with him and then he’ll forget about you.

Then you’ll want to die, to disappear, to rip your heart out of your chest and throw it in the dumpster.

What happened to the movies you used to watch when you were little? Was that all bullshit?

Loyalty, love, kindness, respect. Why did we all forget what we knew?

You are alone, he clearly doesn’t want you.

Your friends are just using you, and your family doesn’t understand you.

That’s all bullshit.

The world isn’t fair, that’s true.

But we are not monsters, we are not animals.

You may think so at times, because of your past.

But the guy that destroyed you will realize what he did, he’ll realize he emotionally destroyed and amazing girl.

But by that time you are going to be happy.

you will smile and mean it. Give it time

Life is not fair, life is not a fairytail.

You can either except it or fight against it and change something.

Is it possible to feel empty?
Is it possible not to have any feelings whatsoever?
Because that’s how I feel right now.
I feel absolutely empty, I’d like to go, leave my house and walk until i find you, and ask you how you are doing, but i don’t want the truth.
I want to know how you are really doing, I know people ask you everyday, but they’re not really interested.
I want to know if you’re feeling empty, i want to know if when you think of me you feel a bomb explode in your stomach, I want to know if you care, if you don’t, if you cared, if you never did.
I want our eyes to meet, I want to see your gaze look away from me because my eyes overawed you.
I want everything like it was before.

This's my heart, no matter how much i've grown, the memories will forever be in my heart ♥

Hey bloggers, i'm sorry for not blogging for such a long time, but hey i'm back :) Well, over the past week lotsa things happened, good & bad. Isn't this what life is all about? I don't exactly know how i feel though, hmm well i guess this is what all teenagers go through? Mood swings & etc? Teenage life can be one of the best years in your life & also the worst years in your life. When i was younger i've always wanted to grow up, enter high school, uni & graduate, pursue my career & etc. But now as a teenager all i can say is, i miss those time when i was a little kid, no worries, no sorrows, no hurt, no pain, just happiness. Well, if only life would give me a second chance, i would definitely want to be a little kid again. I remember when i was younger, i had nothing to worry about. Whenever i cry, there'll be someone to wipe my tears away. When i wasn't okay, someone would place me on his/her lap, hug me & say it's alright, i'm here for you. Yeah, i miss those times. Hmmm, i could pretty much say that i always get what i wanted since i was young. I was the princess of the family especially to my grandparents. I was a really happy kid. Right now, my grandparents are gone, they're in heaven looking down at me. I've always told them that i won't waste my life on Earth, i'll become someone, someday & make them proud :') And right now, i know whatever i'm going through is just temporary, it'll pass soon. That time, i'm gonna stand up proud & say ' Look grandma, grandad i've fought a good fight & i am who i am today, to make you proud ' That's what that keeps me going, no matter how tough & hard life is ♥