6th anniversary.

Hey bloggers, yeah i'm back. It's been some time since I last blogged. HAHA. Okay, basically this post will be dedicated to my late grandma, my heroin. Since May is coming to an end, and June is gonna be here. So yeah, this post'll be for her. Since she passed away on the 19th June 2006. This's an advance post, since i'm missing her really badly right now, and i'm really free and bored. HAHA, okay. This is it! 

" Don't go. I love you too much to lose you. Keep fighting, please " I said. I know you did what you could. You could only fight so long with so much against you. My mind raced, I thought how great life was with you, I kept thinking w/o you it would be unbearable. Come on, you can make it. Death was not even possible. I figured you were too good a human, too strong, too young, and too well-liked to be seriously hurt. My worst nightmare could not compare with what I found facing me. Nothing I felt could be put into words. I wanted to give you the world, but I could only hold your hand. I was so scared. I felt detached from my body, as if the pain of this starting reality was too much to bear. I wanted to die too, to be with you, to make sure you were okay. I felt that your soul was close, I wanted to shake your shoulders and have you open your eyes. Instead, I gave you a kiss and rested my face against yours, willing to do anything to bring you back. The only thing I could do was to let you go. I know you're helping me get on with my life. I learned so much from you. You taught me to live one day at a time, to appreciate everything that comes along, to laugh and have fun, to be honest, to accept people for what they are. And while 10 years is a short time, we filled them with so much happiness, that can never be lost, even now. The one thing you really did for me was take away my fear of death. I am no longer afraid. I know that God must have something wonderful for a woman like you. My faith has also been strengthened, because if I did not believe in God and heaven, where would you be? Heaven has got to be beautiful with you there. I know that when my time comes, I will be looking for you. Could you be watching so we find each other? I really miss you, grandma. I know that you are still with me and I know we will see each other again. I love you.                                     

                                                                                                                                                     Sarah